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listening to: naomi carmack
i decided i'd try and wait up for mibi tonight.
rather then toss and turn in my bed for several hours,
then get up and shower--brush my teeth--eat grapefruit--drink tea.
e t c e t e r a.
but i don't know if i can pull it off.
i haven't been sleeping well the last several nights.
i've got alot of bullshit raping my mind.
and despite constant "talks" from my relatively and extremely
close friends..i'm finding it difficult to not be sad..annoyed..hurt.
eve is feeling the weight of the universe weighing her down.
too many things--all at once.
eve + stress = seriously fucked up.
or more so, just extremely pissed, annoyed, weepy..etc.
.: s h r u g :.
life is full of incredibly trite, pathetic and ridiculous situations.
chalk it up to expierence right? maybe.
or...just do what i did today.
use a photo-copy machine and alot of stamps. heh. and other stuff.
but if i shared that part--i'd be disclosing vital information that at
this time is only attainable by the love of my life, mibi.
my heart hurt's.
if anyone know's a remedy for missing the person you love.
i'd greatly appreciate the recipe. at this point, valium and rooibo tea
is just not cutting it. *pout*
im out :.
love
~e
ps. for mibs:
i keep listening to the cd's you made us.
over and over like a broken cd player on skip--or
repeat, or something. i'm glad you made more then one.
hehehe.
i decided i'd try and wait up for mibi tonight.
rather then toss and turn in my bed for several hours,
then get up and shower--brush my teeth--eat grapefruit--drink tea.
e t c e t e r a.
but i don't know if i can pull it off.
i haven't been sleeping well the last several nights.
i've got alot of bullshit raping my mind.
and despite constant "talks" from my relatively and extremely
close friends..i'm finding it difficult to not be sad..annoyed..hurt.
eve is feeling the weight of the universe weighing her down.
too many things--all at once.
eve + stress = seriously fucked up.
or more so, just extremely pissed, annoyed, weepy..etc.
.: s h r u g :.
life is full of incredibly trite, pathetic and ridiculous situations.
chalk it up to expierence right? maybe.
or...just do what i did today.
use a photo-copy machine and alot of stamps. heh. and other stuff.
but if i shared that part--i'd be disclosing vital information that at
this time is only attainable by the love of my life, mibi.
my heart hurt's.
if anyone know's a remedy for missing the person you love.
i'd greatly appreciate the recipe. at this point, valium and rooibo tea
is just not cutting it. *pout*
im out :.
love
~e
ps. for mibs:
i keep listening to the cd's you made us.
over and over like a broken cd player on skip--or
repeat, or something. i'm glad you made more then one.
hehehe.
t h i n g s :.
listening to: squarepusher - venus no. 17
mood: :cling:
missing: mibi (https://www.deviantart.com/mibi), like crazy. :heart:
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today was long.
i sent things today. my son started school today.
i talked to someone i love, today--briefly.
i spent time with my "lil brother" vain-vacant (https://www.deviantart.com/vain-vacant) tonight.
i feel better having had a conversation about "realistic situations"
and matter's of the heart. (thank you matty).
if i upload nothing but photo's--sorry--for awhile..
i sorry + im dealing with soo much shit atm, i have
very little time for art, or even concentration. .:le sigh:.
but i'm going to attempt s
update number 3 :.
listening to: portishead
mood: :brainless:
missing: mibi (https://www.deviantart.com/mibi), like crazy. :heart:
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sorry for the many updates, omg--boredom ensues.
i dyed my hair..it is bright pink..the more i stare at it
the more i like it better then the first time i did it.
(i hope it doesn't wash out too quickly this time).
i miss my baby. im cold. i hate..stuff.
ps. go give lemontea (https://www.deviantart.com/lemontea) some love, he lost his # sign
today..oh the attrocities of da, stealing the dignity of the
mighty lemontea. how dareth they. har har.
:heart:
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:iconm
[ do not ask ]
is currently listening to: zero 7 - destiny
is currently reading: the lavender menace
is currently missing: my mibi (https://www.deviantart.com/mibi) baby. :heart:
tired, i am.
am i tired?
i am tired.
i you miss.
miss you, i.
i miss you.
love i you.
love you i.
i love you.
cold high and.
and cold high.
high and cold.
tea good is.
good tea is.
tea is good.
!wicked-eve (https://www.deviantart.com/wicked-eve) :iconlove: :iconmibi: :iconlove: :iconblackchai:
im in love, im in love, im in love.
ps. i'll hopefully have my password to my wicked-eve (https://www.deviantart.com/wicked-eve) account in
a few days. :salute:
thank god.
the ghost of wicked-eve :.
is currently listening to: the postal service - nothing better.
is currently reading: running with scissors
is currently missing: my amazing boyfriend, mibi (https://www.deviantart.com/mibi). :kiss:
:heart:
strangeness ensues:.
i get this strange note today, at 12:50pm.
it's a note from my wicked-eve account, that--well
i haven't been able to access for the last week almost.
so obviously someone has hacked into my account or something.
since what they sent me was a note i had sent to my wicked-eve
account, from this one--containing a private convo i had with someone.
i wanted to save a copy of it. anyhow--someone is obviously using my
other account, and to t
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yes, I have the perfect solution for missing the one you love.
first stop
take a deep breath
go to a mirror
look in it
and be so goddamned greatful that you have someone that loves you so much, and that you have someone that you love so much that you'd even think about staying up late just to chat with him. be greatful that you are alright, sometimes. be greatful that you didn't leave at one point where you were actually ok, mind you not happy, but ok. be greatful that someone has your heart, and that you have someone's heart, because believe me now, it's fucking lonely having nobody that you can express a heartfelt thought to every once in a while. because without it you just collapse.
i'm not bitter..nononono.
i'm just isolated.
now read this again
and smile, eva.. really.
first stop
take a deep breath
go to a mirror
look in it
and be so goddamned greatful that you have someone that loves you so much, and that you have someone that you love so much that you'd even think about staying up late just to chat with him. be greatful that you are alright, sometimes. be greatful that you didn't leave at one point where you were actually ok, mind you not happy, but ok. be greatful that someone has your heart, and that you have someone's heart, because believe me now, it's fucking lonely having nobody that you can express a heartfelt thought to every once in a while. because without it you just collapse.
i'm not bitter..nononono.
i'm just isolated.
now read this again
and smile, eva.. really.